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2006-12-16T10:01:00.000-08:00

In sianzation mood since ytd till today. =/ zzz... dunno y.. and dun care??? but i felt just real sian.. and confused?? yah. Confuse with different probs. confuse here confuse there. blah. what to do. Life's just like this?? I hate it when it's like this. but i just cant run away? coz it kept coming to me?? hope I really find the light to everything and that the answer will be out soon.
Don't know what to do.. Don't know why it happen.. Don't know how to get over it.. Don't know.. I just don't know!

Blah.. and I keep making empty promises?? I hate it myself too.. I'm da "wait la... later i do it" girl in the family.. but it will, and of coz, never happen. My dad was really pissed off today with me. and my mood got even worst. An even "sian-er" mood. but all along I knew it was my fault. I really hate the naggings.. but it all started becoz of me? i think.. well.. I still make thousands (or even already millions) of empty promises... And i apologize to everyone for it. I don't even know if i'm gonna change this attitude after i blog this. =/ well... let's see for then..

yea.. and after the pissing off from pop in the car, we reached jackson rd, where i knew we gonna eat real huge crabs? which is like my favourite? and i really... again.. DON'T KNOW.. how to change my "even sian-er" mood to a happy one?? you just cant expect me from a sulky, black face girl turned into a bubbly, cheerful daughter in just one split sec? it's like wad the... =.=?? I just don't know how to react can.. I felt like someone's playing a fool with me la. but anyway, i slowly got over it.. and we tried their new veggie i think.. wasabi veg! nice.. cold veg dip with wasabi. cool.

but anyway. I'm still confused at the end of the day. So like wat the heck.

2006-12-14T06:57:00.000-08:00

I'm totally drained. =.=
after a few days of work, i just couldnt take it.. sort..pack..sort.. pack.. that's what i do everyday.. x] got a few cuts here and there.. fingernails broke.. =/ and orh che(blue-black) xD
but nvm..

ytd after work, went meet reb, yeesin, weiwen and jinghan to catch "The Holidays"! Kinda funny.. lolx... gotta catch it.. it's like you just can't cry even when you broke up with your bf? and the bf said:"You don't even cry when we broke!" lolx? then half way on the comp, Cameron Diaz just pratically forced herself to cry! omg? but failed. =.=

yea yea.. tat's all for today?

2006-12-12T06:11:00.000-08:00

wahahx..
everyone in my house so busy, except me.. sit infront of comp shake leg.. blogging.. xD we like just moved in liddat. coz today air con man come and change air con mah.. so need to shift alot of things.. yea.. so more so dusty.. neva help xD woops! lolx.. later ba.

MIDNIGHT: Jie gonna fly to europe liao and meet her bf. 2 weeks.. good hor. x] take away this year and next year leaves liao. =/ pro kia.

THIS AFTERNOON: went holland.v to meet weichang boss for the coming event at HSBC. omg.. the company located in a terrace la. so comfy.. x] so rich summore..

JUST NOW, AT NIGHT: Dinner with jie and parents! went bedok north restaurant and eat before she fly. =] k la, not so bad.. lol

haiz.. why must everything turned out to be this way? just becoz of 1 super duper minor tiny winy thing then lead to disharmony and misunderstanding here. why must there be so much suspection and misunderstanding? am i the only one who can patch all this up??? I hope I'll find the light to get out of all this.

2006-12-11T07:58:00.000-08:00

late for work today.. omg.. x] my folks called me a few times, but just couldnt get up, and i dont even remember them calling me. =/ lol? reached hq bout 1pm. hehex... oh! then when i enter the gate, guess who i saw??? ALBERT DA SHU!!!!! OMG!!! he came home from states liao!!! wahhHH!!!!! I ran to him so happily la.. lolx, like he my father or brother liddat. lolx. wanted to give him a BIG TIGHT HUG!!! coz so long neva see him liao ma.. SO HAPPY!!! but then cannot la.. =( sobs.. nvm, see him here can liao... wah.. he always so cheerful de... whee... I wanna see him again!! omg.. miss him so much... muahahax...

alright.. ytd, went racking at pasir ris park with E.C ic for the coming FD outing.. ride here ride there.. omg, then after everything.. sunburn... xD but not so bad la.. later.. went walk walk a lil' at White Sands with stacey and shir.. was looking for e fabric spray for susan's present...

i tot still 3 plus until yeesin called. AhH!! 4.30 liao!!! LATE!!!!!! rushed to yeesin house.. then caught in a huge shower in the midst.=.= kns..... all drenched. but nvm, need hurry before we meet susan. omg.. we meeting her at 5.30 la.. we drag and drag coz we still havent make finish x] it was a cushion, then sprayed "Susan" and "thank you" on it. =] thou there's mistakes on it, we manage to touch up a lil' hehex... Susan helped us alot for O's. so gonna give her a gift of appreciation =] THanks again!

Took a cab to rush down to meet Susan. then 4 of us go Seoul Garden eat abd eat and eat. =] love the prawns and coffee chicken! nice nice!! We chatted alot.. lolx... and she gave us smth too! Look!

yea.. that's all bout today and yesterday. =]

2006-12-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

yoyoyo!!!
omg to day sleep until quite late.. woke up at 1 plus... and i didnt went for my skit practice.. supposedly meet zhen wei and rest at tsc 9 am.. x] then in the end neva.. sorry!!!
so went to meet reb, weiwen, and yee sin to discuss susan present and chant. budden, i was late again. xD shoot.... so we went bedok int to look for presents.. lolx.. damn hard to choose prezzie for susan man.. haiz..lol..
Coz the isetan woman called me saying that stocks for fbt shorts came in le, so wanted to go buy quickly at tampines.. then called mongyie come tag along with me... hahax.... then later go shop shop for awhile... wahahax... she bought a purple hat plus a spec... me bought 2 FBT plus a "hat"??? lolx.... sEe see See!

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omg.. after shopping, i didnt know it was 9 liao... i tot still 7?? zhengjie called... lolx... coz at night got bbq downstair my house.. xD he ask where am i .. oh no.. still at tampines.. lolx.. then rush home to meet em lo. =]

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

2006-12-07T04:41:00.000-08:00

today 1st day of work. kekekex.. not bad la.. i and cheery, laugh here laugh there.. omg.. =.= like we two so noisy in the office la. hehex...
got to know melvin kor kor and uncle poh. hahax.. guided us throughout.. then cheery keep banging her leg =.= lol.. accident kia.. hahax.. actually i also la.. xD
we laugh till our way home la! stomach cramp liao.. wahahax...
so tired... yawns!!!
woots!! uncle poh was doing the chingay prep. so cute!! Soka's gonna be the finale! whee... so cool..
anyway.. i very tired liao. xD dun wanna continue..
bye bye! tmrl going hq at 8.30 for morning gongyo first. hope i can wake up!! x]

2006-12-06T07:56:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna get crazy and high can? lol

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whee..
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brb
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back
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lol..she dere 9.40am nia..lol..just woke up
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[a=0]^®±BX®^[/a=11] says:
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>.<
[a=0]^®±BX®^[/a=11] says:
she say acer laptop 499 nia...

(and blah blah blah...)

Saku Uehara says:
nvm... then i ask yj buy mp4!!!!
Saku Uehara says:
muahahax
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ard how much ah?
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[a=0]^®±BX®^[/a=11] says:
she keep dc..=.=
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cus most things made in US mah...so no tax imposed
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dere u can buy a car for $5000
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shit
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i ask her buy liao
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(chat chat chat.. =])

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>.<
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Saku Uehara says:
lolx!!!!

2006-12-06T07:21:00.000-08:00

yo yo yo!
hahax.
today woke up at 2pm.. no need sleep tonight liao. lol.
then watch tv, use comp.
later met mongyie, sijin and jia hui go tampines ikea explore...
i love the sofas, bed and everything la! so comfy... ^^,
oh then, later met stacey and the ics to discuss bout the dec outing.. gonna be at pasir ris park. xD woots!

yea... hey, ive dreamt that ive got 7 for my L1R5!!!! KNS!!!! I wish that will come true can! hehex... pray pray pray!!!

SHiit, and i promise kor to learn FlasH in 2 weeks time. Gonna be 1 week liao.. aHh.... HAvent even learn yet. x] i wanna help him with his company's website design... Gawd... He ask me quote $400.. xD $400!!!!!!!! i wanna that money!!! Or shuld i quote $500? xD Greedy.... hehex... nvm.. $400... first timmer...

I've just read finish "Tuesdays with Morrie" few days ago.. It's damn nice and touching can? If Phyllicia say nice means it's nice... xD coz she's a person who rarely read books. lol.. so read k? It's damn encouraging too...

signing off!

2006-12-05T09:22:00.000-08:00

wahahax...bought Daddy's boxer liao!!! Check it out! lol

This is da Front!! =]

and da back xD

Great? couldn't find a cuter one liao.. so just bought this.. =] yay!
Rebecca companied me to buy.. hehex.. she so paiseh la when in the shop.. x] actually me too, but heck la, no one knows me, i know no one..so hehex.. last year wasnt so bad coz wx was with me.. a guy ma.. lol.

on the way to meet huimin and gang, met bian xun on the way.. lolx.. talk talk talk.. yay.. at least my trip to marina not so boring. hahax.. =] but everytime me, bx and wc together... we like always so sui de.. hahax... soo.... when bx got off at city hall, it was raining =.= he wanted to walk to bugis.. lolx.. hope all those unlucky thingy go away soon... if not can die.. x] but today not so bad la.. wahahax.. he took a train back to bugis..

yay.. then went steamboating with huimin they all. didnt know its her birthday! oh man.. mus buy present for her and others soon.

WOW!

Grrr.....

Look!

huimin's cake!!

Kok Sheng and his pole =.=

Sam and me =]

Zj!

OH! And on the way back, saw Death Note Part2 poster!!!!! *SCREAMS!!!* opens 28 Dec! must go and watch man.... lol

2006-12-04T00:44:00.000-08:00

WOOT! Daddy's birthday is TODAY! havent bought anything for him yet. I wanna buy him a boxer! wahahax..
last year i bought him one with spongebob and patrick on it.. wanna see? xD

the front i think...

and this shld be the back!

CUTE eh? Muahahax..

I wanna him have a collection of cartoon boxers.. heex..

Then when he go to the gents, it'll bring the whole loo with laughter and happiness! CooL? yea, I think so too.. lol..^^,

Later I shall go shop for the next boxer~ lalala...

Oh yea, Hair condition has used up.. Blah.. need buy again.. Dove? or Head & Shoulder?

Pantene made my hair fall only.. even if it's anti-hairfall control.. like.. wad the?? =.=

GHee... I've just highlighted my hair last week! whee.... it's like sorta red.. i long wanted it.. =] lurve my hair.. lol? layered it too x]

TADDAA!!!

nice nice nice???

ytd went to the IT show.. last day... i wanted that wireless earpiece from creative.. $159.. but in the end dint buy. =.= mom isnt happy over the phone... so liddat lo... haiz..
yj gonna fly to america liao... BoN Voyage!! =]

2006-11-30T23:25:00.000-08:00

yaWns...
after the chalet, I've been sleeping like a pig.

30 Nov
0600 - Sleep ^(00)^
1330 - Wake up =]
1400 - Visit Sinseh
1545 - Lunch
1600 -Sleep again =(00)= zzz.....
2230 -Wake up + Dinner xD

1 Dec
0200 - Sleep ^(00)^
1400 - Wake up =D
1500 - Blogging in here

so kinda feel giddy in the head.. lol.. sleep toooo much...

i hate the medication prescribed by the sinseh =.= the black liquid taste worst than expected. It's like you've to squinsh your whole face up when you drink it.. Yeww....
My body's aching.. >.<>.< but thanks anyways! xD
When i fell down after the slope, waoh.. it's like such a damn huge impact la.. I hope it wont affect my curve spine. My 1st phobia liao - roller blading. argh. sorry dad. >.<

but the chalet was kinda fun. Jia hui's PS2 kept me occupied. Wahahax... Fun to play with my juniors and seniors. xD oh and sorry for all the screaming! I was like so tired but just couldnt get to sleep. =.= zzz... looking forward to e next outing.. ^^,

2006-11-28T02:19:00.000-08:00

BOO! ok.. it's like 12 days after o's? wahahax. this blog is dedicated to rebecca. lol. coz she asked me to blog. then i just blog lo. xD but anyway, it's been like for so long since i last blog. And it seemed that this is my longest surviving blog among my other 3. The rest have been abandoned after a few days.. lol.

Whee.. now O's are gone.. At first I felt a lil' awkward without havin to mug everyday at TSC and at home. But gradually got a hang of it. *smiles* the times at TSC when we were drilling our heads down the tys and txbks plus all the jokes and laughter we all once shared, will not be forgotten. and of coz, the mosquitoes biting. =.= and now, we'll be making a habit to make a trip down to HQ everyday to ensure we do our daily daimoku. =D we've just got no discipline.

Talking bout SSA HQ.. YAY! Jin Haw found me a job there =] I'm so glad that I'll be able to work there, being able to contribute to soka makes me =)

dizi chalet starts today! Whoo!

2006-10-19T02:03:00.000-07:00

Find this poster familiar? xD just watched it this morning with jiayi. YAY! i know aint suppose to watch at this crucial period. but last time! x] hehex... the movie didnt seemed to be as exciting as it is. but should go and watch it! very funny and nice.. =] if you did watch the trailer rite, u should have seen a 3D monster? yea, he's cute! cannot believe? trust me. he is. until u've catch the movie, he doesnt apear to be as bad. xD hahax. he's cute coz he likes apple? lol. u'll know why. he gets upset when he cant have it. lol. must catch it aitte? i dont mind watching again (i think) lol

oh, there'll be part2 coming up! *scream!!* it's "the last name" watch e trailer at e end of the show. it seemed more interesting and exciting than part 1! whoo!! comin up on Dec! ghee... must get the comic too... ^^
Check their site too! > http://wwws.warnerbros.co.jp/deathnote/

enjoy =] Death Note (Part 1)

Death Note (Part 2) - The Last Name

2006-10-11T03:37:00.000-07:00

omg. ok. was just flippin thru the channels then national geographic just caught my eyes. lol. darno why, it's seems odd coz it's bout kung fu. lol. i'm not into this stuff, but just caught my attention. it's interesting. hahax. it's also a lil's bout taoism.
they say by practicing kung fu and learning accurate breathing technique can live to longevity! omg la. didnt know such thing exist. =x there's one old woman, 103 years old and she's still praticing 3 hrs daily! cant stand that. she's like still kinda healthy la. and then another one is this guy practice for longevity, to be immortal and to be a taoist god. =\ oh! and the third right, wow. superb man!the tv box says that he concentrate all his chi energy onto his finger before fighting, it's like his daily exercise. woo! they showed how he fight. omg... with just one push from his fingers, wah.... that guy kena push like from my balcony to dining room liddat. then boom! fall down. xD pro la. fingers! fingers u know!! >.< but what's chi energy? anyone enlighten me? lol.
hmm.. ok. last person xD is this young girl right, i think she learnt kung fu for revenge? lol. some where around that line la. coz her adopted father kept beating her everyday. so she hated him. and she cried after she said that. so young girl lo.. ='( but she like kung fu. =] she left the temple coz she wanted to live with her adopted mom. hard life for this girl. sobs.. but very strong heart. x) oh fyi, the temple is sacred. lol. and they live there. only once in a while they go back and visit their families. but they dont like going home. lol. there's no tv or comp la. i sure cant survive. but their skills are superb la. =]
oki..
mom's back with dinner! yay!

2006-10-10T03:15:00.000-07:00

just got home from school. =D got a blogging mood today. =] so i shall. muahahax..
better blog first before the feeling dies off. lol

today sat for social studies mock exam. but i flunk it full strength. with 1 stand for each essay and whoo! i'm off to sleep. very sleepy this morning. Decided to give up on my combine humanities and more willing to spend the rest of my time to study other subject. my foundation for history is totally not there at all. x) so yah. lol. just take the risk and hope that i'll score well for my geo.

watching oprah now. nice show today. =] it's bout young kids(girls) like bout 3 to 4 yrs old, obsessing and depressed with their looks. some think they're ugly, fat and stuff.. so young! then bout anorexia.. kinda interesting.. hahax... multi-tasking.. =x

i hate the haze.. blah.

2006-09-19T01:39:00.000-07:00

yay! ok so long never blog liao. Decided to update a lil'.

yupp, hmm.. ok. today actually had planned to go to bedok library after school but got cropped up in school for some video thingy for graduation. yea, time flies in ngee ann. from mandrin kindergarden to ngee ann primary then ngee ann sec? what's next? ngee ann poly... then work at ngee ann city.. finally promote to ngee ann kongsi? wahahax! omg. my whole life is about ngee ann. lolx. why don't they set up ngee ann jc too? xD hahax.. or ngee ann kindergarden? ngee ann university? Ngee ann Ngee ann Ngee ann...everywhere. okok, i think i'm getting out of point. Hehex...

So back to my life. xD still in uniform. x) going to have a nice, refreshing hot bath after blogging. hehx. Wanted to cover chem today. shall I? maybe. =] oh and yah, did 2hrs daimoku yesterday night. o.O oh man, it's tiring but in the end, managed to acomplish it, with the encouragement from Auston. =]

My long hair is getting in my way. The weather here is so awesomely hot. Everyday and everywhere, I'm perspiring. I've got the urge to cut but have not been having long hair for quite some time. Then I wanna have short fringe too.. Or not? so hard to decide. But if I cut, afraid that I'll look like guy =/ had a bad experience already. >.< oh man... I wanna cut... Pray that Singapore will snow one day. but that means the global warming having some error liao =X

2006-09-05T06:48:00.001-07:00

current mood: dazing (no particular reason thou)
my mind is blank now, duno what to write. O.O
nevermind, just have to remember to watch jin san shun later. don't miss it out too.
bye bye.

2006-09-04T09:13:00.000-07:00

yay.. had some happy, crazy moment today and some sad, soury moment too.

k, first thing first, the happy, crazy moment is that had co graduation today. at first a lil' reluctant to go. A LIL' only! hahax. ok.. but still will go la, not so bad de lo.. =D but didnt regret after all. at first it seemed like the no.of people can count with your fingers, so the games were yah, hmm.. liddat lo.. lol. but more peeps came in later.. some even created their own funky hats. I didnt know at first we had to do this when i came out of the house and read the ticket carefully. lol. so i didnt had one. but hmm. nvm la. lol their funky hat is really funky la... alot of creativity and effort were spent on it. nice. =D i love mervin's one xD it's a shit hat. seriously shit. lol then he made some houseflies around it too. lolx! like someone shitted on your head without noticing liddat! lols. he so lame la! he's the winner for it. yay! lols. so cute.. hahax. anyway, it have been a really great and fun time spending there, especially dinner time and after that. played with juniors then talk crap. had "balloon fight" with tan yin. hahax. oh and we all wore dizi tee today. =D yay! for the first time, i'll be saying "I LOVE DIZI GANG AND THEY ROCK MY LIFE!" wahahax.... seriously will miss them after really graduating.. and thanks for the present! i must take photo and let u all see but now cam batt flat. i love it soo much! so xi xin lo! every star they fold with straws and papers. plus got some lil' message written on on some lil' piece of paper. =] grins* wait for my surprise too xD lalala... hope got chalet at end of yr. cross-fingers. >.<

yea, now the sad and soury matter.
I MISSED TODAY's EPISODE OF JIN SAN SHUN!! SOBs........ cry cry cry... so looking forward to it la! zsa was like telling me what's gonna happen on the next episode, like so interestin g la! I've reminded myself to watch lo... I still forget!!! grr... must go borrow VCD liao.. muahahax... anyone have?
another worst thing is that Steve Irwin died. =(((((( when i went online oday, saw soooo many people put the turtle icon on their nick. Thought today is like some turtle day or what. lol. until i asked yuhui. cant believe it lo! he's like 41 yrs old nia. such loving pop to shoot video just for his daughter, then got sting by stingray.. curse that stingray to die with heart attack man... asthma attack also can... or stroke is fine with me. just because of you, stingray, i cannot watch his show liao. xD but no one, seriously, is like what a waste and... and.. i don't know what to say le.. xD
R.I.P. =]

hmm... ok.. now's 12.35am.. sis birthday today!! wheE!!! almost forget la... her bf bought a ice-cream cake =DDDDD *GRINS* eat eat eat.. ok, i go her room, wish her liao!

2006-08-31T23:19:00.000-07:00

gettin my fingers exercising again. it's been awhile since i last blog eh.
prelims' over for 2 days already, and i don't think i wanna know my results. i'm dead meat. digging my own grave. >.<

anyway, just came home from tampines. went out with jing han to buy his tuition teacher's present. lol. mango stuff are pretty nice lo. esp there's one tank top, the material and design are two thumbs up. $30 if im not wrong. that time went far east with jiayi, saw a collar tee with some white cloth? at the front (like when u wear a polo tee and a white tube inside). fell in love with it. tried that, so comfortable. $25. but i'm broke. T.T

nevermind, next time earn big money, buy whatever i want. told my pop and mom, i'll earn a million in future. xD "still so naive" that's what they say. =.= but serious, i want to earn a million as a designer for many companies. hopefully, my first job after o's will be a free-lance tee designer, with kelvin i think, zsa introduce him to me and jinxing. if i remembered correctly, 1 design is roughly $200? yea. told him we'll be meetin one of the days after prelims. got ready for my portfolio and work liao. i'm so looking forward to it. auston also gave me some few tips and advice. from a graphic designer going on to a fashion designer? i dont know if i have the talent for fashion design, hope i can unleash it some day.

however, having my future roughly planned out already, it's good, but on the other hand, i'm getting so money-minded recently. which is of course, bad. i just kept thinking of earning big sums. i'm afraid, if that's the case, my passion will gradually vanish. At the start, I wanted to work as a designer because I love designing, but now, I want to work because I want to get rich. Thou, currently my passion is still burning, will it estinguish one day? if it dohaving i'm afraid i'm left with nothing in the working world. i'm caught in a dilemma, JC then go to uni? or poly then go to work? or poly then go to uni then go to work? or art sch then go to work? or art sch then go to uni then go to work? life has so much path for you to chose,but at some times, you just dont know where to head, having no idea what lies ahead of you. i'm such a fickled-minded person, once you walk that road after some time, it's hard for you to make a detour if wanna get back to the alternate path. so it's like choosing jc and poly or art sch yea. so hard to decide. but now, i still love designing =] i'm just afraid of losing it. auston told me i'm worrying too much, heck, i think i am. shant go further, i'll make my life more miserable only.

2006-08-24T08:01:00.000-07:00

dont think i'll be blogging that much le, unless feel like, coz wont be usin much of comp this days.
but do come once in a while yea.
went bedok library to study today, but couldn't concentrate, thus drew this pic. =]

the library so damn cold la, tot i could stand the air-con today. but gosh. like inside refirgerator. =here's the edited pic. how's it?

then a.maths paper was total disaster, it's 200% fail. trust me.
pratice practice practice. chiong after prelims. no more play time. >.< (maybe a lil') xD hahx.

2006-08-19T23:49:00.000-07:00

HEY! Something for today! =D That's me on top! =] hehehex.... *grins* cute? xD
it was on a piece of newspaper, my mom kept it. when i was born, my mom wanted to put it on the papers. so there it is. whee... didnt even know until she showed it to me today.

see that? hahax. that's my umbilical cord. my mom stil keep that!
hahax. she was packing her drawer today.. so she took out all those and showed me. small eh? and so black. =/
wanted to scan my ultrasound picture too, when i was in her tummy, but she don lemme. anyway, it's hard to see too.. so nvm. x)
too bad.. she didnt keep my first baby shoe and dress. >.<>yupp.. so that's for today's start. =]

so went to tsc for maths tuition with susan today after english tuition with auston. I was so sleepy today, felt like sleeping when susan was solving for me. yesterday slept at 2 plus, that's y. heex... so concentration level wasn't really that great.

Came home for dinner, and had some heart-to-heart dialouge after that with my family. quite rare thou. But i realise the importance of it. It clears our misunderstand and barriers among us. We get to realise our flaws and stuff. We had a long talk la, cause of some other things. Terrible. I dont wanna our family to be so separated in the future. it hurts me. hahx nvm. i shant share anymore.

hey photo edit here below. how's it?

2006-08-17T23:25:00.000-07:00

Friday! i love friday =] *chuckle*

nothing much to say bout my papers today? coz i think for every paper i'll screw it all up le. x) but i'm still trying my best thou. for o'levels not prelim. =]

yupp.. haiz. anything that i have with always come to no good end. =( jus found out my adidas bag have got a little tiny winy small hole at his bottom. Yea, he've got sex. =] so is "he." hehehex... and i just used it like for a few days only? So sorry poor bag, make you carry so much things. I don't wanna touch him le.. If not, sure very fast spoil. xD oh then.. what else did i spoil? hmm... home phone... clothes hanger.. portable fan... cd covers... alarm clock... so many more down the list! so yah, i'm clumsy and rough. my study table got disfigured by me. Spilt the nail polish remover on it, then now left a patch of donnoe what there, so ugly. but it's my fault anyway.

2006-08-17T00:58:00.000-07:00

Prelim second day! no idea why today I seemed so relax for exam. =x
think I screwed my maths and chinese papers. Chinese exspecially, first time I'm doing bao zhang du hou gan (newspaper reflection?) xD yah, so didnt really get it quite well. It's like only 1 + 1/5 page. So short.

The hall was freezing cold. 2 whole hours for chinese paper. Can't stand it. At that moment, it seemed like I had a whole lot of time scanning my surrounding and building castles in the air.

2pm. Eng O'level Oral!!! adrenalin started pumping when I stepped into the hall. gosh.. when the examiner asked,"what's your most favourite place to eat?" Then LAU PAT SAT! That was the only thing that came to my mind. Wasnt true thou. hehehex.... i kept stumbling! Then at a point,"When do you consider you had a bad experience in a resturant?" 1 sec..... 2 sec..... 3 sec...... 4 sec......5 sec..... *silent* !!!!!!! can you believe that??? oh man!!! i screwed it all up. She prompted me a few times. >.< Sad!! Hope she's just linient... please................

Tomorrow's social studies paper and chinese paper 2. Should I study ss? o.o I decided to kinda give up on combine humans. but so many ppl told me not to do that.. =( but really, i'm so hopeless at it already...

maybe go tsc or bebedok library to study later =]

2006-08-15T06:34:00.000-07:00

Yay.. after a hard day's work, I shall upload these pics! =] The blog pic uploader so lan, think can only upload max. 5 pictures. Oh well, so signed up for flickr then upload it! =D Some are NDP, my birthday and FD cultural night.

Aitte, see enuff of it le. =] So it's time to really blog! xD
Today's mood seems not bad. In school, have been mugging with A.maths differentiation. x.X damn hard (for me) esp the percentage change chapter. Woah, I took like half an hour of recess just to understand and complete the first question. Lessons carried on as usual.
After school, Jiayi and me studied together for English oral. yupp, had alot of fun and on the other hand, gained many new vocab and stuff too! We're making study so fun man. hahax, she also taught me some chinese along the way. xD The study seemed to be my driving force to improve both my languages. Must get A's. People say that I set too high goals for myself and being unrealistic, but yet some other people told me it's great to set high goals, and that if you have the determination and bring out your action, you'll definately achieve it. So why not go for a one?
But for my Chinese, I did really put in my best, and studied wholeheartedly (well, on second thoughts, maybe not exactly that wholeheartedly, but it's roughly around that line). But in the end, why do i yield such result? On an optimistic view, probably is just that my wrong way of studying? The paper was too hard as it was the first time? Or maybe if I've gotten A2, I wouldnt retake. But because of my lousy grade, I would need to retake, and score a better one, and probably, the next one, I would get a one? Who knows? So perhaps, scoring a bad grade now, does not mean a bad thing too. =] Look on the bright side of life! =D
Tomorrow's english prelim, xD oh man.. GD luck!
chaos!

2006-08-12T06:52:00.000-07:00

oki. First day of FD cultural night, but didnt went, busy with other things. yupp, so will be down tomorrow.

hmm.. yesterday..
collected Chinese O's result. very disappointed with it. Had a very high expectation for it, and in the end, it came out like crap. at least give me a B3? couldn't kept my emotions. Thanks guys, for being there for me and consoling me. I was slogging so SUPERBLY HARD for it, and that's what i get. and i meant SUPERBLY HARD. I hate to experience it again, but had no other choice already. Back home, I had a great cry alone. This was one of the first time ever I was so devastated. cause my main goal to work so hard was NOT TO RETAKE AGIAN.

Called meihui later, she was the first one who came to my mind. She is always the person who guides me, gave me good advices and encourages me. yah, and i really learnt alot from her, thou I don't say it directly to her. kinda awkward xD And the talk with her yesterday really pulled back my courage and determination to head where I wanna go, and what I really want.

The day I spent yesterday was very short, caused the rest of it, I was sleeping and sleeping.

Hey! Here's the photos for NDP! =]

oh man... only can upload 5... nvm.. next time.. =]

2006-08-09T11:06:00.000-07:00

fatigue.. =.= wanna sleep soon...
went to NDP today with yue shan. Supposedly going with jing han, but he said his mom didnt allow, so he had to stay at home. so thought that was it. then remembered sze son had a few tickets in hand, so sms him last night if he still had it, he told me yea. in the end, this morning we realised we had some miscommunication. He was refering to the fd concert tickets and i was refering to the NDP tickets. xD oh man.. for the whole night till this morning, we didnt know we were talking bout 2 different topics. zzz.... anyways, the saturday concert is like so damn popular till they created two slots in saturday. one at 3pm, the other at 7.30pm. so whoever wants to come, just come =] not so crowded le. yay..

yupp, den back to my ticketing story.. so me and qiu qi couldnt go liao.. then called her say no more tickets, thought she would stranggle me. but to my surprise, she wasnt la, she was like ok lo. coz her mood kinda sianz today.. anyway.. me too..

then yue shan called me to tag along, coz he've got an extra ticket to spare and nobody wanted, so i went lo. didnt made a wrong choice, the show is like so magical. I love the fireworks, the kallang wave, the performances, the parchutting!!! pratically, the whole of it! =] it's really so magical and exhilarating. and when you sing the antheme and say the pledge, i suddenly feel the proudness of being a Singaporean. It's so different if you watched it on tv and in the stadium. It's seriously so different! no kiddin. There's suddenly a gush of feeling which makes me feel I love Singapore. It's a lil' touching too, since this will be the last NDP held here. Felt very fortunate to be there. I took a few pics and video during the show. Tomorrow then upload bah, now damn worn out le. Me and yue shan was like screaming like mad throughout until a lil' boy in front covered his ears. That's during the soka performance appeared on floor xD so sorry. think i irritated him a few times, coz i kept accidentally hit his head with my air stick (or wadeva u call that) xD opps.

So after everything, we went down to look for our friends who had performed. Had to wait for quite long, coz we aint suppose to enter the place. Took a few shots with em then left. Saw that they had a great time. >.< so jealous. xD hahax.. next time must perform man.. it's been ages since i've participated lo. remembered i took part in it was when i studied pri 4 or 3. Sneaked in. hahax.. I wasnt allowed to join in at first, coz it supposed to be pri 2 and below. =.= made many friends. =] and i still remember the army kor kor... xD hahax.. always play with me and ga jiao me.. the good old days... took care of me alot.. oh man.. miss him and the rest..

didnt study yesterday and today!!! oh man.. i'm lagging... x( i must set my priority right man... yesterday had been designing and designing and designing... for the tees for some guy.. shit. study comes first, and i'm not doing it. Wake Up!!

2006-08-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

National day's eve today. =]
school had performance and fiesta. Not bad. Juniors performed... wahahax.. *clap clap*

Had a henna drawn on my left hand. Woots. simple and nice. err... but the person drawing for me kinda had a hard time xD coz i chose a phoenix/peacock design, she didnt tried that before. so yupp, cosidering it's her first time, it's commendable. *smiles* i like it. then went through several thoughts if i should get a glitter tattoo, in the end i had it down at my leg, near the ankle. everyone remarked, "Why you put at your leg??!!" okay.. i only realised i was kinda foolish and wastin my money to put there after havin' it done. A lil' regret. but nvm la, for charity anyways. ghee...

so had bio test at 11.30, wasnt as bad as i thought. hope i can pass... >.< *cross-fingers* supposedly to go tse yun's house to study with her, but she said no need le.. so writing a blog now and eating my leftover pizza for lunch. hope i can achieved 40 people to come for the fd concerts! =] oh man, Saturday's crowd will be like crazy man... 1,000 ++ people will be coming. Cool! Achieved mr koh's prayer le. so sad.. he come in FD this year, then go out so fast! Damn fasT! like lightning liddat... haiz.. will miss him.. lol.. especially his jokes and stuff.. think he did really inspired alot of people. had my hat off him. it's like, when other people is giving some testimonials or speech, some (or most =X) will get distracted, budden when it's leonard turns... WOW! the atmosphere like so.. hmm... tense but not tense? everyone pays attention to him. Think the way he present his speech is so professional but not professional. xD whahaax... anyways.. gonna miss him dearly.. lolx. he has done many great things for fd. =] especially the sports carnival and the cultural night. we never at one before until him. He did change many of our lives. salute him man.. smiles! tata!

2006-08-02T08:16:00.000-07:00

Busy... busy... busy...
Prelims are round the corner equals O's are soon to be taken. >.< Stressed. Have been busy with studies, studies and studies again. My days are all the same - wake up, head to school, epp, go home, bathe, homework (with a lil' of TV prog cut in between) xD, then study abit, sleep. It's like a cycle everyday. Sometimes can't even squeeze out a pathetic one hour or two hour to revise. No life. At all. No dance. No outings. No fun.

Just recovered from a terrible flu. Glad. =] Been sick for like 1 week? Had a day MC last week, fever. sniff. Think I passed my germs to Ran? sorry. x) He's been sneezing the whole day. Can understand how he feels man. The feeling is utterly horrible. Trust me. I don't wanna get sick again. Especially having the thoughts of swallowing the tablets? oh man... torture for me. I'll just puke the water and tablet out if i can't swallow it. The taste is disgusting. Had many tablets to take at first, fortunately, need to take the antibiotics and flu tablet after a few days. But the flu tablet didnt seemed to help at all. =/ Ghee... I decided to stop taking, and I recovered in 2 days time, which is today! =]

kk, back to studies. haiz... My studies aint that great. I top the second from the bottom in my class. That's bad. So i do really need to buck up and do continuous revision till O's. I'm so dead. but nvm. Chem practical today, and I was the last again. =.= Luckily, had the help of Samuel, if not Mrs Lee need not go home to cook dinner already. Sam's chem damn pro la! Impressed. Then as for English... I MUST, I repeat, MUST put in alot of effort in this man... Or else I'll be dead. It's very bad la. I speak broken english, explanation is so unclear, and my sentence structuring is not a good thing either! My vocab and grammer aint strong. HOW??? DIE..... My general knowledge is low too........... oh man.......... I cant go on like this..

2006-07-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

right. hmm... first, i wanna thanks everyone for the wishes and presents! =] treasure it alot. man.. sweet sixteen... finally... *chuckle*

kinda tired today. *yawns* couldn't really concentrate in class. yupp.. kk, lemme recall 2 days back.

2 July
went out for lunch with family to celebrate sis's graduation. At bedok north. In a restaurant. Not bad. =] the food is nice and they served many dishes o.O forced myself to finish, gobble up those last bits of noodles, suffer less. hahax. the fish, prawn roll, yam, prawn, WOW. all the mouth-watering food. but so sad, only can eat small portion of it. lol.

Right after that, we went back home to get cleaned up and change. Then off we go to the photo studio for my sis graduation photo. I was bored stiff when we were waiting for our turn, couldnt do anything, couldnt even take photo. I was pratically wasting my few minutes of my life over there. But nvm... At long last, came our turn. =.= Didnt even know taking photo could be that exhausting. You've got to make those angle of your head, shoulder, leg and body right. So strenuous. But the camera men were funny. They made my day. Something turned me down thou, they thought I was the older sis la! so dissapointing. and my sis is like 23? oh man... think it was because of my dressing and those make-ups. I rarely fashion out like this la.

So after those shots, went to qiu qi chalet around 8pm. They were getting ready to barbeque. yea. Sad i couldnt stayed over. That day was kinda tired and mom dun really favour me staying over. >.<>

23 July
Yesterday. Hahax yea, yesteday. the day i turned 16 and the day i join the NC-16 club (welcomed by JY) =/ hahax. oh well.
Went to sakae sushi for lunch with family to celebrate. On the way, I was doubting if my grandma would eat such stuff. Indeed, she didnt really enjoyed i guess. So i kinda didnt really enjoyed my meal too. Was quite quiet there because of this. wanted everyone to enjoy. But nvm, later my mood got back after a few hours.
So then, went to meet a friend at ECP. chatted for awhile. yeah. When the sky got dark, i gotta rush home for dinner. yupp, later they brought a cake. got a lil' suprised thou. thanks anyways. =] then zj, sis bf, came. he brought her and me to geylang to eat dao hui. lolx. coz i told my dad i was craving for that. In the end, my mom told him to bring me there =.=l Alrite. 11.30pm. He brought us to ECP. boy... went there twice in a day. we sat at the seabreaker? or whatever you call the breaker thing. very breezy. yupp yupp, 12 plus.. headed back home. take a shower. and sleep on the sofa till this morning. xD

TODAY 24 July
weekdays resume equals to school resume equals to lesson resume equals to BORED to tears. Hahx. Today nth much la, mr fong this days keep picking on me lo. Grr..
ok...
BYE BYE~! =]

2006-07-21T08:03:00.000-07:00

Full! so Full! tummy so bloated.
just came back home not long. =] kinda love today.
Racial Harmony, yea, where all reaces learn about each other culture and stuff.. hmm... what i've learn? hmm... xD frankly... not much. but kinda fun thou. made the indian thingy... forget what it called ("G..." something..) ok, nvm, its a thingy for marriage i think. Just put tie the flowers onto a string. It's hard. But me and zsa... hehex... at last, we used sticky tape to complete it. =.= it's nice. serious. hahax. i hanged it on our table. monday, when we return, there will sure be flies around it. xD
Later, we went for our health check-up. waited for quite long. can doze off any moment. lucky there's jiayi, lisa and zsa around. We talked bout those creepy stuff. *hair stands* Sad, my eyesight didnt imporve nor did my spine problem.
hmm... so after school, went back home, took a quick bath, and off to tsc for dance. Well, today didnt really dance much, cause only freddie, ben and me was the first few to come. then later belle and another girl. Before that, ben, fred and me practiced alittle la. =] and learn abit. xD *smiles* thou cannot join the Aug concert, but aiyah, nvm, go there to have fun. Hope maybe nearing Aug, Susan will allow me to get in. >.< You'll never know when miracles do happen. just hope and hope and hope.
6.55pm - we decided to head off. yea.. so i was on the way to meet dizi ppl. had a lot of time to spare. so i just used "bus 11" to go there. almost lost my way =.= cut trough a few blocks and found myself walking a very big round then i can reach century square. and OMG i was still so early for the first time la! So i waited... waited.. waited... hahax.. got the previlage to wait today. So everybody arrived, headed to pizza hut after much hestitation. Oh yah, and thanks for the gift! yujing, jiahui, elaine, sijin, weichang, bianxun, marui... anyone i forget? thanks thanks. =] k, then ate liao rite, we arrived at cantury squarre neoprint shop! wahahax... what we did? so obvious la! take neoprints lo... yea.
next next... sis and her bf fetched me. yay. then went to calista's dad cafe. too bad, calista wasn't around. if not can ask for a "ka-cha". what's that? discount. xD yea, Zj treated us. thanks. =] and hmm... i'm already so bloated. hahax.

2006-07-17T07:00:00.000-07:00

oki... chinese O's listening compre today. 3 wrongs. T.T so many lor...
then later went meet tse yun at bedok library to study. Studied chem =] can concentrate much better there lo. *smiles*

now conferencing on the phone with hysen and the rest. Wahahax.. talking bout the listenin answers. xD

2006-07-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

Oww... Feet sore.. >.< is there such a thing? =|
Just came home from Tampines. Went to meet Fred and the rest for dance practice after school. Finally, I can resume my trainings! =D yay... Hope I can juggle my trainings, studies and other activities at the same time. Have not dance for eons man.. xD ok, I was exaggerating.. but it's like damn long la. At last got back le. *smiles*

After the long dance prac, we munch at TM Mac. Right after that, went around the mall accompany belle to buy friend's birthday gifts. Yupp, that's bout it.. =]

2006-07-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

aRgh.
Headache. Headache. Headache.
Probably is because I slept too much yesterday. Slept from 6.30pm to 11pm plus. Then at 1, i went back to bed again. =.= zzz.. i don't eat panadol =/ don't know.
have tons of works to do man...
Headache. Headache. Headache.

2006-07-12T09:06:00.000-07:00

It's 12.01 midnight and i've just eaten my chicken rice for dinner. very early eh? Wow. Sure grow fat de. >.< sobs... cause before that i was sleeping like a super pig head.

I was damn shag after the chem practical. Exhausted. I am always a disaster at doing practical. Seriously. I never once did it correctly, only after several times. It's always either my solution get contaminated? the biuerette have got air bubbles? i over shot my titration? or else i can't get my Q.A right? oh man.. I hate it.. How am I going to pass like this for my O's? Half an hour have passed and I was still trying to get that idiotic air bubble out and I have not even done a single titration yet. Hope teh will give us more practical. T.T I seriously need tons of practice.

Blocked nose. Mucus building up inside. =.= Suffering.

2006-07-11T07:47:00.000-07:00

ah... ok.. another day... =]

hmm.. today there's nothing much. So long as school have start, no holidays, hours of lessons, my day will usually be boring and spent most of my time stonning? hehx... Yah, like mrs teh said.. our class have some dreamers and that includes me.. >.<

Hmm... my mom've been searching for her little "evian" pouch these few days. It meant quite alot to her. Cause it contains a gold braclet which my late grandma gave it to her. She said it was the last gift before she went away. Her anxious and nervous expression can show how precious it was to her. I tried looking for it too, but no avail. Hope she can find it back quickly. =] Can imagine myself putting me into her shoes, the feeling would be terrible.

2006-07-10T01:43:00.000-07:00

Once again... Ladies and gentlements...

I'M SO SAD AGAIN! sobs...

I just cant help it, today's my O'level Chinese Oral. And I thought, the several practices I had with my tuitor and Tse Yun will get me through. But now, I think I'm so wrong! I'm so dead larhs.. Extremely pissed and disappointed with myself. I have exactly no idea what the question was talking about? Then I just anyhow answer and I saw the teacher smiling to herself la! So scared... If mine were only on the other days, it may be easier. why must i be so unlucky? Grr...

k, stop it, if not i'll get further upset.. sobs...

Then lesson is as usual.. = bored.

Oh yea, today's Zsa 's birthday. Ead bought something cute for her, but kinda paiseh for zsa thou. It's like a badge, on it, it says "Birthday girl" or something liddat. It is designed like a medal or smthing? Yah, damn unique.. Happy Birthday again, Zsa! =]

2006-07-08T21:01:00.000-07:00

SAD

I'M SAD

yea..mom's unhappy if I go for the formation. oh man. SAD. Thought i could meet the rest and have some fun with em, but so disappointing. Hope they have fun there.

Yesterday was on the phone with Hysen till around 4, 5 plus. talk bout alot things.We're the soul survivor Wahahax... We were actually having a conference in the gang family. It already seemed to be a habit for em to have conference every saturday night. But it's fun! =]

but anyway I'm still SAD...
idling my time away. Anyway, in the previous entries, I said I wanted to blog up the testimonials of the YMDs some time. So I shall write it now :

there's this guy, Jay (fake name xD), had a family of 1 sister and his parents. Both his mom(mrs Koh) and sis(sue) are practicing Nichiren Buddhism. They tried persuading him to practice this faith, however he was reluctant to. Their father (Mr Koh) used to be a gambler and treated his wife as a cash machine. Whenever he wanted any money, all he have to do is just to stretch out his hand. He would also ill-treat Mrs Koh and her daughter. Loan sharks were also after him and would harrass the family.

Despite such sufferings, their faith were very strong and unswayed. There was once, when Mr Koh threatened to throw away Gonhonzon. Mrs Koh was very determined to overcome all these setbacks facing her. She went to the staircase outside her house and prayed earnestly. Day by day, behaviour of Mr Koh improved. He stop asking his wife for cash, he stop ill-treating em and so on.

However, at the same time, Jay had learned from his father's bad habit. He started out gambling in soccer and borrowing huge sum of money from loan sharks. After that, he began selling pirated CDs so that he could clear his debts. Unfortunately, he was being caught by the police and was given 2 years jail. It was only at that time, he realised how foolish he had been. Some ics then went to his house and chant with him. The ic told him to join the NDP . But Jay thought NDP was on August, what if he had to go to jail before Aug? The ic encouraged him to chant fervently. And miracles do happen! Jay was able to performed in the NDP and moreover, his 2 years jailed was reduced to only 6 months!

and yea, this the end of Jay's testimonial. They had actually put up a drama for this. And i must say that, it's really well done! =] To think that a 2 years jail can be reduced to only 6 months! I was shocked and impressed. oh, and between the skid, the people who acted as the loan sharks and Jay, himself, plus one more guy, they performed a hip hop dance for us, and it was real cool! xD hope you had enjoyed or get "WOW"ed by the testimonial i shared with you all. =D

Still left another guy's testimonial. I shall get it done another time.

2006-07-08T10:49:00.001-07:00

Finally got my new blog up already. Yay! hahax... all thanks to abi, she helped me do those codes and stuff. Appreciate it man! =]

hahax. now on the phone with hysen and xinyi. and also starting to write my first entry.

tomorrow will be going to ica for ymd formation concert. On friday, went for RHQ2 ymd formation, the ymds' testimonials were very energizing and motivating. If i have the time, i'll blog up for ya to read. It's really interesting. =] then at the end, they sang the "young eagles" song, I and hysen got so high. =D enjoy the night so much man... *smiles* then hope tomorrow's one will be a success too.

Friday afternoon also went to the exhibition with pu en, then later met up with yue shan and wei kang. The exhibition was not bad, talk about peace and people promoting peace around the world. =] yeah..

that's bout it le.. =] cheers!